His swimmers type body was so gorgeous and wonderfully defined. I was sitting on my couch with my dick in my hand stroking while I gazed upon his perfect body. The only thing he wore was his vey small red jockey briefs. I remember all to well the first time I was with a black man, and I do mean MAN. I really liked this experience related by a faggot in my comments section, so I thought I’d share it. If you don’t push these idiotic doubts out of your mind and submit completely to this GOD you will regret it every second of every day for the rest of your life. A straight black Alpha in an open, honest marriage with an agreeable woman who wants total control of you as his personal faggot? SIGN ME UP. This is an actual psychological issue many of us have – we seek ways to convince ourselves out of a situation to spare ourselves indignity or embarrassment or heartbreak or failure.īut when a perfect situation shows up, this kind of psychological game-playing can be catastrophic. WHAT THE FUCK are you even thinking about here? Yes, you are absolutely talking yourself out of this golden opportunity. Are these really red flags or am I just making up excuses? Thanks for whatever advice you can give Sam I just don’t know if I can deal with work, and family while trying to please and serve this alpha. He tells me that once he owns me he will break me down and I will eventually agree since it will be something He will want and that I will be his good gurl. Thats a really big leap for me to make especially with the work discretion I need.
That has lead him to talk about putting me on hormones so that I develop tits. And by that I mean hug me, cuddle with me, and maybe kiss me. The more like a woman I become the more he will forget that I am not one and the more affectionate he will become of me. I also use female body wash, fragrances, and deodorant to smell like a woman. I guess I am skinny enough and I shave my body hair for him and wear a maid outfit for him and thongs. Also since he is straight he isn’t attracted to men in any way. Its hard to know if that is a good or not. He wants me devoted entirely to him and has told me he once he owns me he owns me for life. He wants me to fall in love with him which from reading your blog seems like a bad idea. He has had many opportunities to destroy me and ruin my life and I thank whatever force of nature and this God of a man that he hasn’t done so. He is great in that he understands the discretion I need for work and some of the limitations that entails. I am being stupid because I keep pushing him away but I am not sure if my reasons are valid or just self sabotage causing me to never find happiness. He has a sadistic side to him that I think he is finally letting show with me since he figured out how submissive I can be and that I am a masochist (Still trying to unpack that side of myself). He wants to train and keep a faggot since he can’t get them pregnant, and can be rougher with them. Anyway he also uses faggots which his wife also knows about. From what he tells me his wife knows and I guess allows him to use other women He described it as a cuckold situation. He is straight, has a wife and kids from multiple women. I know I am being a stupid faggot but I just don’t about which part of my situation I am being stupid about.